Friday, June 12, 2009


tomorrow i get my hair dyed again! back to the prettypretty brown.

mateo's back in town! it makes me want to go get another piercing, but my father would kill me. so that's just going to be like, thing number three on my list of things to do when i go to arizona.

that list goes like this.
1 - Move in
2 - Find Timothy and jump him
3 - Get new piercings/tattoo to celebrate!

yeah. i'm excited for august.

in other news.... i'm not going to spokane anymore, rachel's hella chill, and oh yeah. I MISS MY F***ING BEST FRIEND. douche-y douche. oh, and i really want to bake cookies, but my kitchen is in pieces. but once i get it back, i'm having a baking weekend. a cookie day? i'll need a lot more flour and sugar.

i spent way too long at work today, my brain's gone bye-bye. blargh.

Monday, June 1, 2009


oh my god i was accepted to college.
i'm leaving for flagstaff, arizona in a little more than two months.
i can't wait to see my timothy.

i can't wait to move out.
quarter's almost over, a week more of stuff that really matters.
people graduating left and right.

i think that's all that needs to be said.

Sunday, May 17, 2009


some things that people do just make me smile. today was a good day for it.


"do you want to hold hands?"
"uhh, sure."

"i can tell austin you need a date to prom. really."
"oh my god, simon."

"i'm a leprechaun."

"put in me!"
"that's NOT what she said!"
"put it in meeeee~!"

by the way, ego boost when i bring cookies. the ladro kids do it best, though. =]

Friday, May 15, 2009


i'm scared. too scared to go to work, too scared to get any farther than my front walk if i try to leave my house on my own. wierd things happen for no apparent reason, it seems. i've blacked out atleast four times since yesterday afternoon, and i'm absolutely terrified because i have no idea why and i've been alone most of the time since it started.
i didn't go to work today because i was afraid of passing out on the bus, or worse, on the side of the street.

i hate being scared like this. i spent half an hour sitting on my front steps yesterday waiting for my mom to come home after the first time it happened.
i spent all that time wishing a few certain people would be there with me so i wouldn't be alone, so i wouldn't be afraid of blacking out with no one around. especially those who were mad at me or just too far away.

it's amazing how something like that makes you value people.
so to everyone who i wished was there with me, i love you.
doesn't matter if we've had arguments, or if we just keep coming back to each other over and over again, i love you.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


i made two batches of cupcakes last night.
i wish i had thought to make cookies too, my mood was not improved enough.

we'll have to see how it is when people eat what i've made. maybe it's time to make something really fancy, something that takes some thought rather than cupcakes or cookies.

i miss kyle. going to see bbvd was such an awesome day, i wish both of us actually had the time to do that. and i also miss him as Stubbs. :) best part.
atleast i have a cd for him that he'll love because it's fantastic!

i just feel like the present lady lately. anyone else want one?

Sunday, May 3, 2009


so, i have this friend. and this friend deserves a present, so i'm putting together one for him.
and i have some really good things to put in there, but i also want to toss in a surprise, except i haven't thought of a good one yet. which is a little bit of a dilemma because i was hoping to send it off to him in the next few days.

it's a challenge.
but it'll be awesome, because it's from me, right?

and i just realized that i only have this fool's school address, so he better text me with a different one soon, since said present will probably arrive after finals are over.

iiiiin other news;
i feel accomplished. i made two rad shirts for ivan, and the compliments on them today boosted my ego about 539723 points. poor kid's sick, but atleast people are jeallous of his clothes.
i didn't think i would, but i miss the dinner theater a lot right now. even though there were a lot of cliques and short tempers this year, i still miss it.
and the lack of ZOE and ZIMA. the coaches and the kids were awesome.

i don't know what else to say, so i'll stop.
loves, and all that good stuff.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


Life is going better. Some good things back in my life, some new good things appearing. Some things going the way they should and making life better.
The dinner theater opens on Friday. We're cutting it close, but my mom and I have almost finished all of the costumes. So stressful! Let's hope that everything comes together. I'll put up some pictures soon.

I proposed to Laura yesterday. ;) Stealing my bestie's girlfriend.
'Cause she said yes.

Thursday, April 9, 2009


Ohhhh my!

So, I've really been needing to bake something lately. I stress bake, and since I didn't have the needed ingredients on Monday, I'm finally baking today! I've already filled three containers with oatmeal scotchies. I love making those cookies! And everyone else loves eating them, so it's a win-win situation.

Hmm, I love being in the kitchen. I wish I could keep baking, but I ran out of vanilla, so I have to stop making cookies, and I really don't want to take the time to make a cake or something else. Too bad, I wanted to make sugar cookies too.

Oh well. Soon soon.
I had a stressful few days, but I've resolved most of the issues, so it's good. Life is good.


Friday, April 3, 2009


Wow, almost a month since I've done anything more than read people's posts.
I should change that since I'm waiting for a text before I go to bed.

My life's gotten complicated. I got kicked out of my house for a few days, and even though I'm back there now, it's still tense and really hard to deal with. I've been staying out as long as possible so I can avoid my dad... as he ignores that I even exist. I'm worried about my living situation in the long term. We'll see where that goes. If all else fails, I can trek down to Arizona, right? [Actually, that sounds like a really good option at the moment.]

And you know what comes along with family problems... other issues!
One of the main side affects, for lack of a better term, is that food does not sound appealing at all. So I've barely eaten for the past week, and I think Calvin's starting to get upset at me since he's seen me eat a piece of toast, and that's about it. Yes, I have eaten more than that, but not much. My mom made me eat something when I got home today, and I felt so sick. And yet I have a strong urge to bake things. Cookie time?
Gotta love the benefits of stress baking.

But even though I'm having my issues, I'm still worried about a few other people. It kinda sucks.

Hum. Wedding's in less than two weeks, I'm kinda ready to get it over with; get one thing off of my to-do list this month. Atleast I have all of the things I need, Calvin now has a suit (after what seemed like DAYS at the mall), and everything's coming together pretty well as far as I can tell. I promise there will be pictures once I have them.
Play's the week after, need to do a freaking TON of costume work.

School's up in the air this quarter. I don't know if I'll actually be going or not, which scares me.

This is a fairly negative update. Sorry. <3

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Gratitude: shack.

I appreciate:

My glasses being ready!
Best friends, even when they're sick.
Helpful people (especially Josiah today).
SLT, and the time I have left with that group of people.
Sima helping us out last night.
Kazba (95% of the time).

Oh, and cigarettes. I appreciate those too. Just not when people are trying to get me to smoke with them when I don't want one.

Friday, March 6, 2009


you know what?

i fucking love ashlyn nagel. no joke.

that girl has my heart. with a teddybear attached.


"you're a part of my bubble."

Tuesday, March 3, 2009


I've made up my mind.
I've decided.

I'm going to spend a hell of a lot of money for a one-day pass to Sasquatch. Hopefully it'll be worth it. Decemberists!
There goes most of my next paycheck. ;____;

Monday, March 2, 2009


L: Old black magic has me in its spell
K: Old black magic that you weave so well
L: Those icy fingers up and down my spine
K: The same old witchcraft when your eyes meet mine

L: That same old tingle I feel inside
K: And then that elevator starts its ride

L: Down and down I go
K: Round and around I go
L: Like a leaf, caught in a tide

K: Well I should stay away but what can I do
I hear your name and I'm aflame
L: Flame, burning desire
K: That only your kissss
L: Put out the fire!

For you're the lover I have waited for
K: You're the mate that fate had me created for

And everytime your lips meet mine
K & L: Baby!
L: Down and down I go

Round and around I go

In a spin, loving the spin I'm in
Under the old black magic called love
K: In a spin, loving the spin I'm in

Under the old black magic called love
K & L: In a spin, loving the spin I'm in

Under the old black magic called love

K: I should stay away but what can I do
I hear your name and I'm aflame
L: Flame, burning desire
K: That only your kissss
L: Put out the fire!

You're the lover I have waited for
K: You're the mate that fate had me created for

And everytime your lips meet mine
K & L: Baby!
L: Down and down I go

Round and around I go

In a spin, loving the spin I'm in
Under the old black magic called love
K: In a spin, loving the spin I'm in

Under the old black magic called love
K & L: In a spin, loving the spin I'm in

Under the old black magic called love

Under the old black magic called love!

It's been stuck in my head. Maybe because I love Keely Smith's voice.

Sunday, March 1, 2009


I've had a good couple of days, I think.

On Friday, I waited waited waited. I had my eye appointment, and then spent the rest of the day pretty antsy. I wanted to go see some ska! Eight finally rolled around, and I met up with Calvin at Safeway when he got off of work. It was a little awkward, actually. I went upstairs with him, and when we were walking by the deli, one of the girls working their called out "Heyyy, Calvin! Is that your giiirlfriiiend?" Ha, he just said no and we both ran upstairs. It's not the first time someone's asked that. I think most of the time it happens at Safeway, actually.
Anyway, he got his paycheck, we grabbed Tera and booked it to Seattle, and we didn't get lost this time! I rediscovered my hate for giving directions from the backseat, though.

Get Down Moses was awesome, though some of the kids in the crowd were really really disrespectful. But Easy Street was pretty packed. I have a Get Down Moses button now. :D
Rude Tuna was up next, and I guess it was thier first show. And then we found out where all the disrespectful kids came from. They were all kids that go to school with the guys from Rude Tuna, and we were pretty sure they'd never been to a show before. A couple of them tried to start a fight. And Calvin complained a little that none of them knew how to skank and just stood around looking confused. "They don't really understand the concept of a circle." Well, except for Dreadlock boy.
When Rude Tuna finished their set, most of the stupid high schoolers left, leaving the kids who actually came to see some good ska. And the Diablotones were amazing! I'm kinda dissappointed that we had to leave a few songs into their set, but we had to get Tera home by midnight.

Except Calvin's Jeep did not want to start for us. That poor little red car. We finally flagged someone down to jumpstart the car, and I had to talk Tera out of yelling at the man for charging Calvin. It is really stupid that a grown man would charge a stranded teenager money to jumpstart his car. But we finally got moving, didn't get lost this time leaving Seattle (like we did last week, we decided Sonya was our bad luck. <3 Even though we love her.)

Yesterday was an early morning, though. Rehearsal was okay, but it didn't seem all that productive because we had a few people missing. I went to Ladro three times yesterday! Once for every shift, haha! Saw Drew and Annie in the morning, Jared in the afternoon, and then I decided to come back after my meeting to see Sima. <3 I missed that girl. She's so adorable!
Calvin finally showed at Ladro, and we went and wandered around the mall. We snagged Ashlyn a little later and went down to Richmond Beach. It was kinda nice getting to sit there on the beach in the dark and just smoke and talk. Oh, and sing. Haha, I miss singing with that beautiful girl.

We finally decided to venture forth for food, so we hiked up that big ass hill from the beach and hopped in the car and went to Beth's! I miss Beth's cafe, and I'm really glad we went last night. Calvin and I annoyed Ashlyn with our 'silent conversations', which I thought was hilarious.

We took Ashlyn home, and I saw Cole! And got hugs! It was awesome, I miss that kid too. And I worry about him. I really miss our talks in Play Pro last year. :( Nostalgia, sad stuff.

Calvin and I decided we didn't want to go home, so we went and got bubble tea and just sat and talked until we both realized we were tired and wanted to sleep.

That's what my last two days were like. Today I kinda just get to veg until NET tonight. And Vespers after. Hopefully we won't fuck up as badly as we did this last time. I hate how music team has just been crashing and burning this year.

I think I'm going to watch Robin Hood Men In Tights, and then maybe do something productive. Maybe.

Friday, February 27, 2009


Dancing through life, skimming the surface..

This morning I went and paid a visit to the eye doctor, yayyy! It's been a while since my last check-up, and since I'm the only one in my family that doesn't wear glasses or contacts, we decided it be a good idea to get my eyes checked out. Sure enough, I am not the odd one out anymore. I still have the best vision out of the five of us, but now I need glasses.
So, I chose a pretty pair, and I can pick them up next week. I'm kinda or glad, actually. My eyes won't get so tired anymore. They're really tired right now, though. My pupils are really dilated, and even though it's getting better, things are still fuzzy. It's a nice day out today, too, so I'm hiding behind sunglasses, and I'm inside right now! It's just a rare enough nice day that I can't stand to leave my window shut and the blinds closed.

Tired eyes, tired eyes.

It's finally friday! I'm really excited. I'm meeting up with Calvin after he gets off work and then we're going to go to a show at Easy Street Records. The Diablotones, with Get Down Moses and Rude Tuna. <3

Uhm, rehearsal tomorrow. At NINE! Crap, I actually have to get up at a reasonable time. And do some costume stuff. My mom's going to be working doubles for the next couple of days, so it's going to be me on my own for a while on the costume front. So much to do!

I'm going to go sort of watch a movie until my eyes go back to normal. It feel wierd, having achey eyes.

Thursday, February 26, 2009


And leave you, leave you here stripped bare.

For some reason I have a desire to hack off my hair. But I know that if I do, I'll hate it about halfway through. I should just hide my scissors and wait for Mykee to do it for me. That's probably the best plan. Yeahhh...

Hmm. I had a nice long conversation with Laura today. It was a good thing that we had it. Answered some questions, mine and someone else's. I hate having to ask someone something awkward for someone else. But I guess it's a good thing that I did. Now we know.

Skipping out on the jazz festival this weekend. I'd like to be able to do it, but I really just don't have the time or the energy for it. Might as well leave myself time to do costume stuff. Be productive this weekend.

Going to a show on Friday with Calvin! And maybe Ashlyn? I'm not sure yet, actually. But I'm excited to go. It's been a while since I've been to a ska show, and I've actually never been to Easy Street Records. The Diablotones, Rude Tuna, and Get Down Moses. Should be good. I'm not sure if I can go to the Natalie Wouldn't show next week, which makes me sad, but we're still on for Chaosapalooza at Studio Seven, so that's good. I still think Studio Seven is shady as all hell, though.

Kaz-ba tomorrow. Work after. Probably some costume prep stuff before either of those, since I don't have class. Or maybe I'll finally catch up in Jazz Hist? That might be good. Maybe. And then Friday! Display and Costume, costume work time, then meeting up before the show. Yay!


Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Gratitude: Molasses

Today I am grateful for:
Awkward, funny moments with friends
Kyle Eddy being a pirate! And a sweetheart
Visits at work
Forrest, for making me feel like superwoman today
Kristen, for sharing her curry with me today <3
Emma and the girls and bubble tea
Dan, again
Timmy, for reminding me that I'm a dork.

So, I can't keep my plans straight. Please feel free to skip this, because I just need to try and list everything and figure out life for the next week or so. Or two. Thank you.

Wednesday, Feb. 25th
Get BAF shipment!
Jazz fest, right after Symphonic
Work, after 6
Costume time

Thursday, Feb. 26th
Jazz fest, 7 am

Friday, Feb. 27th
Jazz fest, 7 am
Display and Costume
Diablotones show with Calvin (Ashlyn?), 8pm

Saturday, Feb 28th
Rehearsal, 9-3
Jazz fest teardown

Sunday, March 1st

Monday, March 2nd
Music Team
Coffee Time w/ Calvin

Tuesday, March 3rd

Wednesday, March 4th

Thursday, March 5th
Natalie Wouldn't Show/Ashlyn's musical/Kyle's one acts

Friday, March 6th
Ashlyn's musical/Kyle's one-acts. 7pm

Saturday, March 7th
Chaospalooza, 1:30. Calvin and Ashlyn

Sunday, March 8th
SLT Meeting
Compline! Finally.

Too much to do. I don't know if I can keep it all straight.

Gratitude: Fly

I'm a fly, I'll die tomorrow, so give me all you've got.

Sara sort of inspired me with her Gratitude journal. It's a good idea, to remind you to be thankful. So I'm going to do it, but since i don't feel like making a seperate journal, I'll just put it in this one and mark the titles. Like.... my usual song thing, but with Gratitude in front of it.

Things I was grateful for on Monday (23rd):
My job (and the extra work for more money this week)
Clean floors (but not the sore back that comes from making dirty floors clean)
The chance to do so many costumes for the dinner theater
Rehearsal tomorrow, and two new parts of the script
Gummy frogs, and all the things that go with them :)
Music Team - when we get along and don't want to kill each other
Coffee time with a good friend
My ZOE group, whether they listen to me or not
Getting away with things that I probably shouldn't have done
Having conversations with Timmy again
Comfy sweatshirts
My mother not knowing about my septum piercing

Sunday, February 22, 2009


I've been really unhappy with my life lately. Which is wierd, because I've had a few REALLY good days in a row, but one little thing will ruin it for me. And then it's like the good mood I've built up is just gone. I don't like that.

I've decided I don't like hiding things from my mom. And yet I can't bring myself to tell her any of the things that I've omitted or downright lied about. Omitted? Smoking. Septum. Drinking. Lied? School. School. School. I don't like it. But to tell her and then see how dissappointed she'll really be... I can't do it. I'm a wuss, maybe.

I've been smoking a lot lately. It's a stress thing for me, and I've just been needing one more and more lately. I smoked so much this weekend! And I hate that I have to leave work to do it since I'm not allowed to smoke there. Breaking rules, breaking rules. What a good example you turned out to be.

On the plus side, I've seen my best friend a lot this week. Hung out with him a lot. But I know I'm just getting my hopes up because he's been off school this week, and when he goes back tomorrow it'll mean he'll have less time to spend with me. Because even though our schedules are a bit more on line than they used to be (seeing each other 3 or 4 times a week instead of the usual 2), it hardly means anything because we're always doing something. Meetings, rehearsals, NET, kaz-ba. Does that even count? Do those days mean anything at all. Maybe I should just count the days that we usually get to hang out during the week. Uhhh, 1. And then we're on a time limit. Peachy.

I really want to stop lying about school. I want to drop out and work full time, simple and plain. I only enjoy choir and my music classes, and with the way I've been feeling lately, I don't even want to go to those. Does it mean something's wrong, or am I being realistic?
God, sometimes I feel so alone. No one knows every little thing about me. People don't catch it when I lie about my life, or omit things that happen, or things that I do.

"Mia, how are you?"
"Well, I feel like going home and sleeping and smoking and not eating for days so I don't have to be around people and can do whatever the hell I want without being told I'm not allowed or that I have to do something. "
"...oh, that's nice."

How much of that did you see coming? Did you know enough to not be surprised by anything?
This is so ranty and bitchy and downright WHINY. But screw that. I get to, every once and a while.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


I think I fiiiiiinally know everything that I'm making for costumes this year. Hopefully people don't surprise me last minute. Alterations, sure, but not whole pieces.
Too bad there are still four people who haven't even thought about theirs yet. We will see.

Two dresses, a vest, two shirts, trousers, a cloak, a mermaid's tail, and possibly a gorilla suit.

Pirates, castaways, and a mermaid, oh my.

I'm going to Nickie's tomorrow! I miss my bestie so much, I haven't seen her in a while. Her wedding is in two months! This scares me a little. It's like the dinner theater, closer than I want, probably not enough time to do all we need to do.

Septum's healing nicely, I believe. I really want the cleanser that's supposedly in the mail. Hopefully it shows up tomorrow before I leave for Nickie's, since I won't be home until early Sunday morning (Saturday night?) and I want it if I'm going to be away from my normal household routines. Mainly because I can't go and wash my hands as often at their house since their dog is NUTS and barks at me everytime I go upstairs. My helix needs that cleanser, too. It's angry at me.

Hmm. Really, this is another post with no real meaning. Just something to keep my thoughts straight. I think I'm going to finally watch my movie now.

Sunday, February 15, 2009


I got it done! My retainer's so cute, it's teal.
Maybe I'll put up the picture Ana took when I get it.

Except Calvin made a fuss, so I had to flip it down in front of everyone, so it's not exactly a secret. Something bad's going to come from that.

Haha, Drew told me I have to be careful about eating from subway, because apparently he got his caught in his bread when he tried to eat his sandwich.

Holly was my Valentine yesterday. :] It was cute, we went to Edmonds beach and watched the sunset. It was so pretty.
Uhm, good day with Holly yesterday, good day with Ana today, hopefully a good day with Patti tomorrow? And definately going to be a good day when Ashlyn visits me at school on Tuesday!

Last thing. You're a jerk.

Saturday, February 14, 2009


Life's been quiet. Maybe it's just because yesterday was my day off, and maybe it's because I'm enjoying having the house all to myself today. It's so nice to have the house quiet [no tv blaring in the other room, no father playing his guitar and singing as loud as he can, no sounds of WOW from both of my brothers' bedrooms] and actually be able to come out of my room without getting a killer headache from all the noise. I hope I'll have days like this more often once I get my own apartment. Well, not my own, because I'll have a roommate, but you know what I mean.

Plus it's nice not to be yelled at. That too.

I'm bouncing around a little, knowing that tomorrow afternoon I'll finally be getting it done. I'm excited for it, but also a little teensy bit afraid. My friend was telling me about some horror stories from 'safetypin' piercers, the ones who pierce themselves or others in bathrooms and such with nothing more than a dirty safetypin and some ice. And of course, my friend had to tell me about the stories involving the one I'm going to get, so I'm a little afraid. But I trust Mitch to do a good job, especially since the last time I was there he ranted about how he wanted to go after the safetypin piercers and break their hands with a hammer for being stupid and unsafe. Besides, I'll have Ana to hold my hand. :]

I'm going to go chill with Holly today! We're going to the mall, which is good, 'cause I need some o-rings. These glass plugs slip out in my sleep sometimes because there isn't anything holding them on in the back and I move around a lot. Maybe I'll pick up a new pair, too? We'll see. Maybe we'll go somewhere else today, too. We were talking about the beach.

I feel a little wierd. I have a pill in my pocket that I have to take at 4, but I didn't want to carry around the whole bottle, and I don't like carrying them unmarked or whatever. I suppose it's in my favor that the name is printed on them?
Still, I feel a little guilty anyways. I feel like a drug supplier or something.

I'm not sure if there was a point to all of this. Maybe. But it's almost time for me to go, so I will.

Thursday, February 12, 2009


It makes me feel wierd when popularity ebbs and flows. It pretty much does what it wants. I've never been the most popular girl around, but all this attention lately is making me feel... odd. Like people only want to be around me when they have free time they don't know what to do with. Example: this weekend, when a lot of kids are on thier midwinter break. In the space of a day, people claimed my time for the five (or more) days they have off.
And yet I spent most of my summer break alone because no one wanted to hang out with me? What's so different that I'm more appealing now?

Except, of course, to the people I really want to see - my best friends. Patti, I haven't seen in over a month. Nickie, about the same. And of course there's that other one, who I see all the time, but we never really get to spend time together. Or is it just that we can't seem to do anything out of our normal routine? Man, if only. I love Ana, and I'm so glad she's going with me on Sunday, but it wasn't the original plan. Oh well. She'll be a better support for this anyway. She's done it.

Real life?
I've fucked up, but shhh, no one's supposed to know. Soon enough it'll all be very apparent to the people it will bother the most.

Other than that, life's just peachy.
My silver pieces for my costume came today. I am in love with them.

Monday, February 9, 2009


Did you know that I hate sneezing?
I can feel it all the way down through my chest when I do. And I don't get the cute sneezes. No, I get the "Oh my God, I think my brain just came out through my nose" sneezes.

Can you tell that I'm sick?

Uhm, today... today...
Today was Monday! I went to school, I made music, I worked, I made music, I worked, I got coffee and went to the bookstore. I beat up on my best friend with a book because he would not stop making "That's what she said" jokes. [Note: He was WARNED. "I swear, one more, and I'm going to hit you." Blah blah blah "...that's what she said." "I'm going to kill you, Calvin. *smack*"] I went to the mall? I watched my friend buy new plugs and tapers, I went home.

Apparently I'm really good at setting myself up for Calvin to make those jokes. Like when we were walking through the parking lot at the college and I commented on how the new dorms were bigger than I thought.
...that's what she said.

Ahahaha, I really don't think those are all that funny. >>;
Maybe it's because it's his new trend? Three days STRAIGHT. And more tomorrow, I'm sure.

Uhm, this is really pointless. But I'm bored. So I'm typing what I'm thinking.

...yeah. Goodnight.


(She's always smokin' a Lucky Strike, I wanna go out with her. Oh, ridin' round town on my motorbike, I wanna go out with her. But she won't date me and I know why, she knows I'm workin' for the FBI!)

Presto-chango, the costume plan has changed. It's early on, though, so it's okay.

We went craftstore hunting today, and my mom and I came up with some pretty maroon-y linen for my cloak, with a white muslin to line it. It'll look so good with the silver clasp I found! And seeing as most patterns are made for someone who is 5'6, I shouldn't have to shorten it since I wanted it... well, not floor length. Calf length.
It'll be so B.A. (Why did I just say that? Bad Mia!)
We picked up all the neccessary patterns for the costumes. My mother does not trust me to make the gorilla suit without a pattern, so now I have one. I suppose I wouldn't trust me either, since the fake fur is $15 a yard. And yet she trusts me to improvise the mermaid tail?

I'm going to find out on Tuesday who all needs help with their costumes. It's a cast of seventeen, and already my mom and I have a list of five definates, with at least three possibles. Thankfully I'm planning on making the gorilla suit next weekend, so that'll be done and good.

Boots? Apparently I found a good site for the cast to get their boots from. I have to show that off on Tuesday, too. Maybe we can do one giant order, like we are with the swords. BTW, swords are easier to decide on than costumes. Almost everyone has a sword picked, and yet they have no idea for their costumes. Sweet.

Costume plans:
-My costume (Cloak, tunic, trousers, boots, belt, [kerchif? maybe])
-Mermaid (Tail, modest top?) If it has to be modest, I might as well make a bodice, instead of trying to make a skintoned shirt to put under the standard bra.
- Gorilla (suit, gloves, furry spats!)
- Pirate shirt
-Pirate vest

I'm so excited for our first real rehearsal of the year on Tuesday! I will be a happpppyyyyy Mia!

Friday, February 6, 2009


I am impatient. Er, I have been impatient lately.
I really want my paycheck (and some of my best friend's free time) so I can go get a needle stuck in me. :)
Or... my tax refund. Yeah, I could use that for it too.

I am also impatient for the dinner theater! I am so excited for these costumes!

Gorilla, mermaid, viking queen, Josiah's cloak...

Sunday, February 1, 2009


I want to be at compline right now. This kinda sucks. I understand, but I hate it.

PS - Biggest pet peeve is people ditching me or cancelling last minute. Or even worse, forgetting about me or our plans together. Doesn't make you feel good, y'know? Especially when you have some issues similar to mine.

Scary thing I learned today : Josh says I'm not allowed to leave next year. Honestly, I think that is THE worst way to get someone to stay, telling them that they don't have a choice.

OTHER scary thing I learned today : Josiah can drag me down the hall. And he remembers things. NOT NICE.

Sunday, January 25, 2009


I want to update this, but I don't know what to say. Maybe an apology is a good idea.

I'm sorry. If I'm acting wierd, I'm sorry. I'm not sleeping right anymore, and I decided a few days ago to go back on a certain medication I never should have stopped taking in the first place. If I look sort of blank or don't talk all that much, it's not that anything's wrong. It's just that I'm not feeling.... anything, really. That sounds melodramatic, and it's not what it's really is, but it's the best explanation I have.
Pretty much, I'll be experiencing mood swings for a few days [it started Saturday afternoon, so it'll be over really soon] so it's okay!

It will go away in a few days once my body adjusts to being back on this medication. Blame it on my stupidity.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


Well, it's not technically my job anymore. But atleast I'm sort of on call. So there's hope of getting paid, when he doesn't need it more. I'm okay with that.

I love the friends you can make when you're the only two in a group that do something. Like, secret friendship. Because you know a secret that no one else knows. And it changes someone from "that one kid who sings bass" to "my _______ buddy". So hopefully it will continue. I like this kid. He's fun. And he love Alligator Soul. Super kudos.

Everything should be free. Life would be easier. Friends should do things for their friends because it's the right thing to do, not because they want to get money. Because there are some things people won't do without being paid, even though the person they're doing it for has no money to pay them. It sucks.

School bites.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


What do I have to report?

The celebration is not mine.
The drama is someone else's.
The good news is not to be shared.
The frustration will soon be irrelevant.
The good karma is dissappearing with alarming regularity.

Life just keeps on moving. It makes you wonder how long it will keep moving if you just decide to stop. Everyone around you keeps moving and they rush by, but there you are. Stopped. How long does it take for someone to notice you've stopped? Maybe you've been stopped for so long that you've dug yourself a hole. A comfortable hole. Maybe it's a hole where you can tune people out, where their words mean nothing. But. Maybe there was someone who stopped with you. And maybe their words mean something. Maybe.